Major Arcana: The Star

“Although the engagement ended, 

what seemed like a long time ago, 

I hope to God that he’s well-fed,

happy, 

healthy, 

safe, 

and living his life to the fullest. 

And although our love is no longer reciprocal, 

and I don’t know if it ever was, 

all I do know is that regardless, 

I wish him the best upon a shooting star, 

even if I’m no longer standing by his side to see it. 

And if a star can flash through my sky once

Perhaps it can happen again.”

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Major Arcana: The Tower

“You picked the wrong side

Thrown your cape and cowl into something intimate

Landed atop a maelstrom of righteous vengeance

A place where you definitely don’t belong

Toppled down like the fall of Rome

I’m spread too far and wide to control

The conquest is over for my handsome augustus

But he sure ain’t you.”

Major Arcana: The Devil

“Best part of my job is the quiet

The sounds of silence

Splendid isolation

No one to answer to

Rosary engulfed in the flames

Iron sphere wrapped around the ankles

The ethereal key in clear view

Tethered to a paradise lost

When there’s nothing else to burn

You have to set yourself on fire”

Major Arcana: Temperance

“No one is the villain of their own story,

The idea being that people are so utterly self-righteous,

And so impatient for their own needs to be met,

That we refuse to take responsibility for our own evil doings

In regards to the sand pouring down to do gravity’s bidding,

Am I the villain of this story?

Or is it the 1% who failed so miserably at keeping us safe within the community?

Or is it the Audience watching from behind the Golden Gates to see what horrible thing might happen next?”

Major Arcana: The Hanged Man

“You live in a bleak dream

Where soldiers are shooting stars

You live in a meek dream

Where inmates drink their sorrow in bars

You live in a loud dream

Where the bottom of a triangle sounds like a bass

You live in a proud dream

Where being stationary quickens the pace

You open your eyes

To the subtle truth

That dreams aren’t lies

They’re just uncouth”

Major Arcana: Justice

S.S.

Dedicated to my therapist

I never had the chance to thank you

For saving me from myself

I liked the shadow he casted

But the shade never lasted

I knew of his crimes

Intuition I denied

I felt like my duty was to fix his stoic

But it wasn’t my job to be a mechanic

I never had the chance to thank you

For saving me from myself

I cried my face off in your office

Memories resonated of his last kiss

And when the lights started to get dim

You opened all the windows up and let it in

Sometimes it feels like it’s about to end

Before you remind me it’s all about to begin

I never had the chance to thank you 

For saving me from myself

Major Arcana: Wheel of Fortune

“Pain and pleasure are synonymous,

Whether you’re on the top or the bottom.

We all yearn to live.

We all yearn to die.

Your dark world aches for that splash of the Sun.

Your silent world desires that beat of the drum.

That melancholy nostalgia drowned out by growing pains,

But nothing lasts forever.

Life is too short to even care at all

Yet you seek a solution that you should have found by now,

As if the world owes you anything for breathing air

That we all share!”

Major Arcana: The Hermit

“My mind is socially deconstructed,

piece by piece, 

the more I learn,

Every day,

Deviating from the mental conditioning this world has drilled into my head from the moment I was born:

– My gender

– My ethnicity

– The environment I was brought up in

– My sexuality that I naturally grew to accept,

Despite it being intolerable.

Therefore, my words will always be suffocated by society’s undying antiquity,

Society’s desire for the mundane,

And I will forever be plagued with this chronic loneliness.

As if I’d have it any other way…”

Major Arcana: STRENGTH

“How long can emotions last? 

To peer directly at the past, 

To analyze it from an objective point of view, 

To truly put yourself in someone else’s shoes,

Whether it be the aggressor or the victim,

These are different perspectives on life verbatim. 

All the roles we play in our lives to different people,

Who’s to say who is good or insatiable 

If there is no such thing as a bad person then there’s no such thing as a good person

Just people who do good things and sin 

Even the one person who hurt me the most is capable of good deeds and bad deeds

Just because I played the role of victim in regards to him 

Does that make him a bad breed?

We all have these needs that must be met 

And we tend to do whatever it takes to get these said needs met 

Even if it means hurting other people in the process,

Even if it means being ignominious,

Even if it means breaking the law,

Even if it means not doing anything at all!

It is my sole duty to perceive my life and reality itself the way I want to, 

Because the concept of reality is subjective and only true to you.

 I’ve hurt people in my life too,

 I have played the role of aggressor.

Some have yet to forgive me,

And I have no control as to whether 

Or not they’ll ever forgive me.

It’s part of the human experience to place a foothold in other people’s lives for the better 

          hopefully for the better

                   …or for the worse 

I am human and flawed 

disappointing 

temperamental 

needy

 longing

  regretful 

proud

 resilient 

strong…

I believe that to truly use the power of Empathy,

To gain Insight on someone else’s perception on reality, 

and to utilize it in your own despite the role they play in various length…

that is the key to True strength.”

Major Arcana: The Chariot

“My love shined alabaster,

Piercing through the shadows;

A pristine beacon of hope,

Illumimating his callous, cruel urge to run…

Run! RUN –

– Away…

Not once deviating from the crossfire of my heralded desire.

An arrow in the form of a single word…

When did your name morph from a word to a charm?”