CAUTION

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Hello to my cautious fallen angels! It’s been a while since I last checked in. I tend to write poetry and short stories, but there’s nothing wrong with that.

It’s Mother’s Day and the sadness wrecks havoc once again. I was an unusual child. My mother was afraid of me. She called me “the sick boy.” I spoke of death, misery, and hopelessness around the time my parents were divorced, and also during the time I began to get bullied in school. Then, trauma ensued and I became catatonic from the age of 10 to 18. I dressed in gothic garments, cut myself regularly, and tried to commit suicide whenever I was bored so she could keep me entertained. I blamed her for the loss of my innocence even though she didn’t do it directly.

I used to have sex with gangsters for drugs and pickpocket strangers on the streets to survive. My mother was a whore, and there was never food in the house. I went in and out of psych wards, residentials, group homes, and state hospitals. I got expelled from four different high schools before I finally graduated.

By then, my mother no longer bothered visiting me, let alone keeping me entertained. She gave up on me. I am the “Jason Todd”* of her four children.

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*Jason Todd was the second Robin after Dick Grayson. He was murdered by The Joker. Then, he was resurrected by the use of Ra's Al Ghul's Lazarus Pit. Jason Todd became a villain called The Red Hood.

Now I am a grown man. And every Mother’s Day that comes and goes relinquishes the mental bind I constructed to keep these horrid memories at bay.

I am socially rejected by almost every social group dynamic I have come across throughout the years. I am guarded and I hardly let anyone in. I portray this dark persona but I believe myself to be very gentle and kind. I must be cautious at all times. It’s days like today that never let me forget why I always exercise CAUTION.

Well, just because I hate Mother’s Day due to association by my own life’s experience, it doesn’t mean you feel the same way. At that note, I wish you all a Happy Mother’s Day!

Feel free to check my latest book, a book of poetry called Trials and Tribulations! http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B018ZR0IVA/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?qid=1460319936&sr=8-1&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_QL65&keywords=trials+and+tribulations+sufian

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8 comments

  1. chulisi · May 11, 2016

    Hey you, love love ur honesty. Would love to hear more of this youth you lived through. We are quite alike in more ways than one. Keep writing

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    • The One-Eyed Angel · May 11, 2016

      Thanks man. I have a bunch of stuff like this in my archives. You have me intrigued. I’m gonna check out your blog too. And don’t worry, I’m never gonna stop writing. Lol. šŸ™‚

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  2. Game Of Words · May 17, 2016

    Your writing carries so much weight. So much depth. It is way beyond word. One can feel that. You have the power to draw people in. This is beautiful. Impressive.

    Liked by 1 person

    • The One-Eyed Angel · May 17, 2016

      I thought only my writing affected me that way. I wanted to believe that it could affect other people the same way but I doubted it. So thank you for making me believe that I can successfully convey my feelings to others wholeheartedly.

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      • Game Of Words · May 17, 2016

        Well, there is nothing to doubt. You are a very gifted writer and I truly mean that. You words filled me with joy. Keep the good work going. I would love to read more.

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      • The One-Eyed Angel · May 17, 2016

        Thank you so much for your praise. I’m not used to it but it sure feels wonderful. I checked out your blog too. You’re quite gifted yourself. It’s nice to meet people who are as passionate about literature as I am.

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      • Game Of Words · May 17, 2016

        Haha. Wow. Thank you. Pleasure to meet you.

        Liked by 1 person

      • The One-Eyed Angel · May 17, 2016

        You’re welcome. Same here. šŸ™‚

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