Standing by for fun…

Good morning to my misunderstood fallen angels! It’s been a while since I last posted something other than poetry, random reviews, and reblogs. For that, I humbly repent. So let’s get to it, shall we? After my first heartbreak, I’m not really in a rush to get my heart broken again. So I sit idly by as all my friends are all in relationships. But looking back, the fact that I even have friends now is quite an accomplishment on my behalf. And also another fact that I went from dealing with hardcore issues to mere high school shit is a blessing in disguise. Yeah, I may be single and lonely but I’m focusing on myself. I’m getting my driver’s license this Thursday and I started my second semester in college today. Apart from those goals reached, I also have a job now as a Suicide Warmline Operator. It’s just I’m so proud of myself. And I deserve it because I have been through so much. Besides, all my past relationships were unhealthy and affected me severely. And I’m saving up for a car. So I’m not gonna bother wasting money on dates where they just end badly anyway. Money that would better suit me in the long run if I just save it. I am at my best at this point in my life and when I fall in love, I fall hard. But at the end of it all, I have no regrets whatsoever. Hardship is the only way to strengthen the soul, I always say. I’ve survived worse. I’m keeping myself busy now that my Summer is over. I don’t see it as running away from my problems or repressing my feelings. I see it more as staying proactive, acknowledging my past and how it affects me to this day, and trying to move forward with my life. God takes someone out of your life to make room for someone better. That’s what I always tell myself. And a life without goals or purpose is a life not worth living. That’s why I keep it moving. I also realize that although not even my friends can understand me, no one will ever fully understand ever. To expect people to fully fathom my existence would be foolish. That’s too much expectations on anyone. And to be honest, I don’t want people, even the closest people to me, to figure out my mystery because anyone can betray me. I am only in complete control over myself. I am okay with that. So with that paranoia-infected note, I hope you all have a wonderful day! Over and out.

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8 comments

  1. chulisi · September 1, 2015

    (sigh) I must say I enjoy reading your posts. Not to mention I think your handsome as all hell. I am happy that you are doing things that have you involved and stimulated mentally and spiritually. What’s a fallen angel to do with their time but still help others anyway. Keep up the good fight and keep up the work with self. It always pays off- trust me I speak from experience.

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    • tpcsufian · September 1, 2015

      Thank you! I’m flattered. Only good things can come out of doing good things. So although you have done it already and im still in the middle of this fight, I honestly believe you when you say it will pay off. 🙂

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  2. Bunnet · February 8, 2016

    This completely out the blue, but have you ever taught of cosplaying as Snake from the Metal Gear series because you sir, look so awesome in that picture. You could even play a real strong bad guy : )

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    • tpcsufian · February 8, 2016

      I am so flattered! Thank you. But I never got into the Metal Gear Solid series. I gotta look him up. How have you been? 😀

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      • Bunnet · February 9, 2016

        Oh man stress like hell, and had anxiety attack and ended bleeding from my old wound, but recovering back

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      • tpcsufian · February 9, 2016

        I wish there was something I could do… 😦

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      • Bunnet · February 10, 2016

        It fine, it just goes to show sometimes been workaholic with fear the future not the best combination

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      • tpcsufian · February 10, 2016

        I wouldn’t know what that’s like. But I guess working a lot will bring you unknown opportunities for the future. Fear of the unknown. It makes sense.

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