Loneliness and guilty pleasures

Brimstone and shadow shrouds my soul,
Makes me unapproachable,
Suffocating the light within,
With selfish acts of sin,
I know that it’s wrong to comply,
With the darkness deep inside,
The faithless and spiritually blind,
Cannot see nor fathom my kind,
Fallen angels guarding what consumes us,
Memories resonate of an incubus,
Fear and intrigue morphed into love,
Red flags ignored warnings from above,
Events occur way beyond my maturity level,
Inevitable death fabricated damsel,
Screaming out distorted love songs,
Sirens casting out lectures amongst,
The loneliness can replace the devil beneath the sheets,
Guilty pleasures in the form of love stains meets,
Underneath a canopy of infatuation,
Submerged further into oblivious condemnation,
Rock bottom is my summer resort,
Acrobatics convey with their bodies contort,
Lethargy and hopelessness is a comfortable satire,
To wear to the ball before clock strikes midnight’s dire,
Unveiling of the truth behind the mask,
Questions I was too afraid to ask,
Answers that can kill me instantly,
Better to live loved faintly,
Lies and bittersweet fellatios,
And meaningless exchanges of promises forms ratios,
Truth slays my heart forever more,
Need time to self-reflect escape the masquerade ball,
Seek salvation as I delve into the mystery,
My closed mind opened so I brace myself to feel life’s agony,
Holy retribution and holy water divine,
Baptism isn’t a cure-all nor is it a drawn line,
The bible shouldn’t be a bibliographical anomaly for zealots,
Eucharist is the coming of saints acknowledging their imperfections, Prayer is to submit and admit I’m nothing but a dot,
In life’s perpetual and everlasting discretion,
I’ll admit that i know nothing compared to what I could know,
If I knew life’s secrets I would lose my mind,
To live contempt and in the moment I’ll show,
God that I am worthy of being risen and not left behind

Feel free to like or comment on this post. I will always reply back to comments! 🙂

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14 comments

  1. doriah · July 10, 2015

    Wow. This is so beautiful..
    I’d want to be a great writer like you one day.

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    • tpcsufian · July 10, 2015

      Once upon a time I said the same thing to someone. Someday you will be told the same. History repeats itself but that doesn’t mean it’s bad 🙂

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      • doriah · July 10, 2015

        that is so true 🙂

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      • tpcsufian · July 10, 2015

        I’m glad you enjoyed my posts. I have plenty where that came from. How long have you been blogging?

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      • doriah · July 10, 2015

        Its been almost a month now. Funny thing is that I thought it would be easy but I am finding it difficult and challenging. How was your experience when you started
        blogging?

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      • tpcsufian · July 10, 2015

        I felt the same way. But also a way to convey myself whereas I would be too afraid to in person. Its my coping skill. A kind of thought straightener where i usually endure racing thoughts day in and day out. But most of all, it opens the way for my legacy and I have faith that one day, I will be recognized for just my thoughts alone. 🙂

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  2. doriah · July 10, 2015

    sounds like it was easy for you. Sometimes I want to write intimate and really weird stuff that is on my mind but I fear….. I hope to fight this feeling as soon as this weekend is over.

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    • tpcsufian · July 10, 2015

      I have that fear too but luckily none of my loved ones read my blog. It’s easier to scream your thoughts into a nameless crowd than it is to speak it softly to a loved one. Confidants apt to keeping an open mind to whatever i have to say rather than to a judgmental friend.

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      • doriah · July 10, 2015

        So you do not post your blogs on your other Facebook and twitter pages?

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      • tpcsufian · July 10, 2015

        Well my blog posts automatically are added to my facebook page and i just linked my Twitter account to my blog a few days ago. These links are an extension to the main blog basically. Its easy for an intrigued reader to manuver from link to link. You should try it sometime. Just be aware anyone can see your link’s content.

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      • doriah · July 10, 2015

        You should show me… If it’s not too much to ask. (: I’d really appreciate
        I want to get my words out there and express myself fully without the fear of friends and family asking lots of questions.

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      • tpcsufian · July 10, 2015

        Im good at explaining things. You basically customize your dropdown menu to include hyperlinks to various social media outlets. You go to view admin, then edit your menu (s), then customize your blog. Its good to include widgets too

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  3. tpcsufian · July 23, 2015

    Reblogged this on The Pandemonium Chronicles and commented:

    Before I submit my 100th post tomorrow, I wanted to pick this post as my personal favorite. Unless this counts as my 100th post, then it would deserve this spot regardless. Loneliness and guilty pleasures was my personsl best. I love you all, my fallen angels! Have a wonderful day!

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